Musing...

In musing over the past months, all I see is a blur. A blur of reading, writing, presenting, planning, etc...and here I am. Another month closer to graduation, another month closer to marriage, another month closer to re-entering the real world. Should I be scared? Should I be nervous? There are no clear answers to these questions. It seems that my self-authorship has really kicked into gear since moving to California. Inside and outside of the classroom, I have learned what my passions are, where my talents lie, who I am, and who I want to become. Through all the flux, the only constant in my life has been my best friend, my ally, my challenger, my supporter, my love, Emily. It hasn't been easy being a graduate student, a graduate assistant, a groom. Emily has been endlessly patient and graceful. It hasn't been easy for her either, as she has changed jobs and endured unnecessary hardships along the way.

Emily is the only reason why I am not nervous, why I am not scared. Because of Emily, I have been able to focus on developing true vocation. I've been able to build a solid foundation for my career as a student affairs professional. The question I ask is no longer if I will find a job, but rather where I will find a job. No matter what, Emily and I will be together, living life, growing with each other! Thank you Emily for being my best friend and challenging me to do better and press on even when I have felt as though I couldn't anymore. I love you more and more each day and cannot wait to pronounce that love in front of God, all of our family, and friends! I love to muse on you Emily, and our future together, wherever that journey may lead.